Mabye it's time to change, and leave it all behind.

I'm going to type a long drawn out explanation for my life right now, but really I can sum it up in one word. BLAH.

First off, I caught the crummy flu that's been going around. Although, from what I hear, my case was better than most, it still sucked. 24 hours of not being able to get off the couch was not fun. And even though I'm mobile and functioning again, I'm still lacking energy and have persistent cold symptoms. Yuck.

Things at home could get better. Details not needed for cyber world, but for anyone who happens to read this I would greatly appreciate prayer for my personal life at the moment. I know He is the only one that can manage the mess we've made.

I've made a deal with myself in the last week, and that is NOT to post my every thought on facebook anymore. Along with that, I'm not posting updates or pictures of my children. I'm amazed at how difficult it has been! There are pictures piling up in my phone memory, and it makes me feel like I'm somehow falling behind. Pathetic, I know! But I'm tired of people being able to keep up with my kids online, and thinking they don't need to see them to know them. That isn't fair to the boys. Realistically, this move of mine probably won't last long, but for now it feels like I'm making a stand for them. Which, after all, is my job as their mother right? Right.

Therefore, all of my entertaining kid stories will land here :) Safe where I'm sure the people in question don't look. (BTW I know I could 'de-friend' them, and elimate this problem, trust me when I say it is NOT that simple..)

Evidently Dylan has learned to open doors. Like big, heavy, leading to outside doors. NOT my favorite trick. Nearly made my heart stop to walk into a room today to see Dylan standing with the door open, Cameron about to go head first down steps into our concrete garage floor. And I had only left the room for a minute. Apparently, Maddie needed to go outside and Dylan thought he should let her out. Good thing she's not a dog to run off! He's still doing about the same on potty training. More accidents than I'd like...but wearing underwear as long as he's awake. No public accidents to speak of...yet. *Knocks on wood* He's LOVING the weather being warm enough to play our in our yard. Yes, I said that. We live in a house with a YARD :) Awesome! His little imagination runs wild out there! Yesterday, he was playing with an imaginary Woody and Buzz, and Maddie was slinky dog. Then he was heartbroken because all the leaves fell off the trees and they were 'broken' (obviously he wasn't paying attention when that happened back in September..) he spend a good 10 minutes trying to put them back.

Cameron's 1 year well check was today. He's finally broken 20lbs, and is up to the 25% for his age! HOORAY! He's doing great, eating everything that doesn't eat him first, and I swear learning and understanding more everyday, but the little booger just WILL NOT walk! Haha...on his own time I know! I just know that he is capable of walking and won't. Battle of the will, and he's currently winning. 

Well, I think I've rambled quite enough for now. Till next time...

xoxo

Just a random day.

     Today is one of those days where I feel the need to change my fb status every 15 minutes because I have so many thoughts I want to share. And since the youngest is sleeping, and the oldest is quoting Toy Story, I decided to be less annoying and do it here instead :)

     The last few days have been the first time in a long time, that I've been away from my husband long enough to miss him. We work similar schedules and don't usually go very long without being together. But his old job and new job are overlapping right now and he's picking up extra shifts with the new one, so he's been at work more than anything else for the past few days, and I miss him. He worked his first overnight shift last night. Eeek. I had a sleepover with my best friend and Dylan had a friend stay over too and we had fun. But eventually that's going to happen and I'm going to have to be a grown-up and be alone all night. Double Eeek. It's not my favorite. I'm a pretty big chicken.

     Cameron had a check-up today, he's finally almost 19lbs! They gave me a bunch of paperwork that said things like "How to feed your toddler" and "Accident prevention for your toddler". For one, lame since I have an almost 3 year old, I know this stuff! And for two, he's my BABY. He's not walking and won't be 1 till next week. He can't be a toddler yet :(

     Speaking of Toddlers, if Cameron is almost a toddler, then Dylan is almost a kid. I can't believe how grown up he is. More and more everyday. I dropped my phone today, and being the big helper he is he ran and picked it up. But when I reached for it saying thank you, he put it behind his back and said "say please mommy". Stifling laughter because he was dead serious, I said please and he plopped the phone in my hand and took off. That kid is something else. I would even consider him mostly potty trained! Finally!! He hasn't worn diapers except to bed in a week!! HOORAY!!!! Except evidently turning the vacuum on literally scares the pee out of him. Oops, I'll know for next time!

     Well at least I've had a lot of spare time to get everything caught up around the house in the last few days! Even if it only takes a minute for everything to be messed up again!! I got the carpets cleaned- which I've been meaning to do since we moved in! And I vacuumed the rest of the house now that I have a working vacuum again. We're too messy to not have a functioning vacuum cleaner in this house!

     Well I guess I'll go be productive some more. Lets see if this quiets all the random thoughts in my head. It's not all my fault though- I've barely had adult contact all day!

     Until next time!

God is good!

It is amazing to me how things manage to work out. Looking back at this last year, I don't know how we survived it. With all the pressure, everything should have fell apart, and almost did. Almost. We took on full time school for both of us, 1 went from working 8hrs/week to working 24+, we had a premature baby, adopted (and got rid of, lol) a puppy, had a million illnesses, lost a beloved grandma, and moved. It was an intense year! And looking at where we are now I'm amazed. There were MANY times when I just stopped and cried out of frustration, sure that our family was falling apart. BUT, here we are. We're so close to being done with school. Our kids are oblivious to the strain of the last year and are happy some-what healthy little boys. We live in a home that we LOVE. It's very hard for me to say, but it was worth it. We closed our eyes and jumped into the land of unknown, which if you know me is VERY hard for me to do, and here we are. Holding our heads above water. Sometimes it's barely above water, but that doesn't matter. There is no doubt in my mind that we could have done that all on our own. There had to be a higher power helping us through. Throughout the year the phrase "God will never give you more than you can handle" made me laugh, and sometimes even angry. But He knows me better than I know myself evidently, because I managed. So I praise God for a tough year, and pray that 2011 is a little less rocky.

Hello.

My household is currently battling what our doctor laughingly refers to as "the crud", so I had some down time today to browse through applications on my phone. I came across the Myspace ap that hasn't been touched in months and decided to look through it. I ended up coming across all my old blogs through Dylan's first year, and laid in bed laughing and remembering all of those times all over again. It wasn't until today that I realized how much I actually enjoyed blogging! It's probably the only thing I miss about myspace. I always said I blogged to keep everyone updated on how Dylan was doing all at once, but now I think it was for myself too. There's usually a million thoughts in my head, and if I can put some of them down somewhere, my chaos becomes a little clearer. And in turn, I am a calmer, happier person. So as part of my new years resolution to be more patient, I have decided to take up blogging again :)

See, I told you I'm a rambler! Get used to it, I doubt it's ever going to change.

We had to take Dylan to the dr. today because he can't seem to kick this stinkin' cold he's had for a few weeks now. Turns out he has at least one ear infection (the other was blocked and he couldn't see clearly..) So now this 2 1/2 year old is on cloud 9 because he gets to take medicine twice a day plus eardrops and tylenol as needed. Weirdo. But our dr gave Dylan a sticker for being good, and without any prompting from me or Jake, he says "thank you" and proceeds to destroy the sticker. Being the proud mother hen that I am, I'm bubbling at the manners that we've tried to hard to teach him being shown off in public, only to realize that the dr said 'you're welcome' without even looking away from the computer screen. Not his fault, he's a good guy and a great dr, I guess a 2 year old's  manners doesn't quite excite him, like it does me. Good Job Dylan!! Now if only he'd potty train, I'd be on cloud 9. Ahhh...someday.

Cameron however seems to be on the other side of the "sickness" hill, finally. He doesn't seem to be growing any, and I don't understand why. I'm not worried about him or anything, he'll grow soon enough. And the less he outgrows clothes, the more money he saves us, so kudos to him! I just don't understand how one tiny person can eat SO much, and stay so tiny! He out eats his brother, dang he practically out eats me! We'll see how he does in a month or so at his 1 year well check. Speaking of which, My "baby" will be 1 on Feb 2! Less than a month away!! How did this happen so quickly? Seems like just a few months ago his father and I were going through hell trying to balance life with Cameron in the hospital and Dylan at home. And now he's on the brink of walking, almost ready to give up formula and baby food, chattering up a storm, and mimicking everything we do. He's so much more laid back than his OCD-ish older brother ever was. He's pretty much Jake,while Dylan unfortunately is me made over- looks aside.

Well I better get off here for now, sickness only lasts so long and I hear the Wii calling my name :)

PS- Don't worry, not all blogs will be this long!

-Me <3